Rubbed the Wrong Way

 To all appearances my husband suspended his cheating 6 months ago. Only in that he stopped fucking the two sidepieces. Three months ago he was still texting both when he created some rage in his head and self validated a need to. Less than a month ago his main sidepiece texted him yet again...and he answered. Briefly and not conversationally but of note that he still has her number in his secret texting app..and that he answered her. He told me as if that absolves him of any wrongdoing. We have had infrequent sex since he stopped actually cheating. To appease him and avoid abuse I also give him hand jobs- it’s the only way he can cum anyways even with sex. Several time I avoided intercourse with a hand job because he had scans on his penis. When we first had relations after the cheating I wanted him to use condoms. He bullied me out of it. So I checked him so to speak before each intercourse. Last night he wanted sex. There were scabs on his penis. I knew a hand job wouldn’t be accepted as he had complained about one from a couple days prior. He had also complained about not having sex for ‘months’ even though we had just days before! Anyways I asked him if he had rubbers. He said no even though I know he has them in his dresser and his truck. He asked why and I said I’d prefer to use a condom. Again why...well you do have some scabs I answered. He then went on to tell me how he knows he doesn’t have anything he doesn’t have any diseases he didn’t explain the scabs and he got pissed about me wanting condoms. I did say well you don’t know that really neither one of us of been tested. He also tried to turn it around and accuse me of cheating and that that’s why I want to use condoms. Which is kind of ridiculous because after your cheating I’m not wanting to protect him I’m wanting to protect myself. I said well you did say that you used condoms with the woman you were with so what’s the big deal I mean you’re not against using condoms. And he said well not with you. And then he said well we don’t have to have sex then any pull the covers up. I didn’t really react because I’m learning not to do that I just said well OK then and then I got up and made some wings for myself. But in my head I’m thinking how is it OK to use rubbers with other people while you are  cheating on me - supposedly using rubbers- I don’t really believe he did all the time if at all- but why is that OK but it’s not OK for me? So today we went to the grocery store and we have a list of things to get and at the end he was like do we need anything else? I smiled at him and said yes rubbers!! And he said I don’t need any fucking rubbers I’m not gonna use them. So OK again I guess it’s OK and you’re not offended by using rubbers with women you’re cheating with but you don’t want sex enough with me to use rubbers with me. That just rub me the wrong way end of discussion.