Spring Gimme a Break

I took a year hiatus from this blog..but certainly not from my verbally abusive husband! Quite a few months actually went well - the cycle again. And I always respond to his “Ive changed I love you I’m sorry” with forgiveness and trust that he means that so we reached what I thought was a level of happiness and possibilities for out future. But it didn’t last. Maybe Ill spew forth some interesting incidents from these last few months...sorry to say there are many. Doesn't sting as bad though. Tonight was a prompt to this blog although I have been continually able to be non reactionary..not crying or being upset equates to frigid according to my husband. Anyways he asked our daughter to unplug her laptop. She said in a minute. He told her again and she smarted off to him. He then unplugged it. I told him (and her) I fully agreed with his actions. And I backed him reprimanding her. And she should not have talked back. However he did need to remove the words "Fuck you. You can kiss my ass you little fucking bitch" that he said to her. Verbal and emotionally abusive narcissists are not rational and cant be reasoned with..I know this but I made a quiet, calm attempt. I did not interrupt or get angry. No surprise that within moments he did however get very angry. The insults towards me were not direct..he stomped around making some comments about not being married then slammed his bedroom door. He's an angry person. Oh heck lets just rewind to the weekend also. I started to tell a story to his parents and sister and he interrupted and spoke right over the top of me telling the ending. I jokingly and with a smile said awww you told my story. To which he berated me.... I said nothing...so in front of his parents (this is in public as well) he tells them I'm pouting. Even his sister said I wasn't and I was okay. He threw a couple light insults out. As we went out to our car he asked me for the keys..I gave them to him and he starts berating me for giving him a dirty look..that's in his own mind. I wasn't smiling because what do I have to smile about? But I didn't have some evil eye going on- i wasn't perturbed anyways so why would I? As we are deciding where to eat he tells them "wherever she's not going" "I'm fucking sick of her" and a few similar remarks. When I said I didn’t care where we ate he said "you/re a fucking bitch". His Mom did interject at that point just saying "jeff" but in a tone that at least objected to him calling me a bitch. Unfortunately this abuse did touch a small nerve of humiliation..its not like i would defend my honor to HIS parents. His persona can stay intact - its not my place to ruffle their false reality of their son.  Here it is...Tuesday night..that was saturday...and he wants to know if I ever get horny and why I'm not in the mood to have sex with him tonight?! Boy..gimme a break.