Old Fool

 I really thought I had a grip on my cynicism. On the one hand I didn't believe any ofc his new professions of love and faithfulness. But upon being presented with it as fact I was highly disappointed in myself in realizing some part of me was buying the whole "I'm never gonna be that guy again/I'm never gonna cheat again" bs I've been fed time after time. found out that while he did get rid of the common find a woman apps I knew of it was only to hide out on some new ones. Kik for starters. Where hes visited some live nasty stream. Then he also joined "hottie". A site born for unfaithful no integrity creeps. Also of note is I realized hes been taking an old phone to work. I asked him for it - its my old phone after all. He said he didnt have it (lied). Then wanted credit for coming clean right away and saying he took it because I aske for it and today was the first day. It wasn't the first day. More lies. I realized he takes it because he thinks I have all his email passwords on his phone...even though I don't. And he's changed them and has new email. At one time I had two passwords because he used MY old phone - but that was 6 months ago. Anyways he takes the old phone so he can hotspot it to his current phone so he can hide what hes doing. Like trying to 'investigate' my phone number to find me cheating. And he won't. Because I never have. Jerk. Projecting as always. But the main part is I actually bought a little of his bs. No fool like and old fool. Me.