Aww he just got home and without further ado launched straight into verbal abuse. How original... not. Apparently still upset with his other supply not working out he is in a temper. Went straight to his room. Asked him how his day went - pleasantly of course- only to get an irate diatribe about creating some account on his firestick. I don’t know anything about those so not any help but he went on about our yahoo password. That’s used for all our payment accounts so not sure why it applies to some porn access he’s trying to create but I successfully grey rocked him and am feeling quite chill about the whole situation even though he is literally ranting aggressively about it. Why do I feel amused right now? I went to his room and asked if I could get him anything and he said “like fuck you you don’t do anything I carry everything “ blah blah. I was amazingly kind the whole time. While he ranted that I do nothing but sit on my ass and why don’t I help and get a job and if I was making $30,000 a year it would help. Unfortunately he is so obtuse- I don’t have a degree nor am I skilled - I am not going to make 30k a year - I don’t even understand Microsoft office which is pretty standard for any job above retail. And I was a manager - made a whopping 13k last year at that lol. I’m gonna need a LOT of education to get to 40k! The whole time I asked why he was so upset and what I could do to help and he was like”I’m sick of it. I’m sick of my life. I hate everything about my life”. He continued his derogatory hate for 10 minutes or so.I’d say his girlfriend got his panties in a real uproar!!. Hmm well I’ve taken care of the household for 15 years now. And frankly the job I had back in the day HE got me fired from for calling too much. I’m sure there’s more going on than meets the eye and I was Miss calm, supportive and kind no matter what he threw out so his supply is dry- so frustrating for him! Even when he stated he hated his job and was sick of it I told him feel free to change it - that I always supported him even when he was self employed (facts) and would if he wanted a change. Honestly I think he’s checked into alimony and wants me to work because he’s afraid to pay it- but he’s delusional about my unskilled earning potential in addition to the effect it would have on our college family contribution amount with 2 boys in college- at my pay almost all of it would go to taxes and college. Whatever - he’s obvious as fuck and it’s recorded! The amount of crazy coming out of him even in the face of my unrelenting kindness is amazing. I pity the man that will never be happy. I know he’s upset as well because the mortgage payment wiped out our account- as I tried to tell him the scheduled mortgage payment doesn’t know he missed work last week and had a short check. He’s so mad - my view is hey we may be cash poor this week but we are guaranteed to live in our house another month and for me that’s a 1000% positive. And my outlook is healthy and right. Looks like another night alone in my room
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