One other interesting thought process I had recently. So my husband believed he was in love with his recent side supply. He’s already been trying to find a new supply so that’s a thing . If I wasn’t blocked I’d send her proof so she could be "saved" as he may eventually give her a try again. Anyways he made plans with her - made her believe they had a future - translate live together - what other future is there?. And I wonder how he envisioned that life? We live on 40 acres and he has a shop and dirt bikes which would all be gone. He has his own room where he hides what he does and what he has and who he is. I could be wrong but she was somewhat religious so I find it somewhat doubtful she knew or was into the volume and type of porn he’s addicted to if any at all. So he believed he could give all that up and sleep in the same room in an apartment with his only escape work? He’s over estimating his ability to let go of his true nature. And yet with self delusion believed he would have a future with her? Part of me wishes he had left..he didn’t because he can’t give this up even though he doesn’t recognize what “this” is in detail. He s codependent as well. Maybe he would manipulate her into taking care of every detail of his life other than actual work. Hmm. Well he’s gonna find out if this fantasy of his is possible but on my terms.
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