After returning from Miami and talking at length my husband believes his sudden partial honesty absolves him of all sins against our marriage and truth. The next day he again vowed to a future where he would improve on our relationship. And I made a pretense of buying it. But I didn’t. His phone broke while we were there. I ordered a new one a few days after returning. A week later it hasn’t arrived and a week later the old pattern of rudeness, stonewalling and yelling is back. 2 nights ago he walked in the house and immediately started ranting...about money, how he was sick of everything, how much he hates his life. He started screaming at me about all of the above and dinner. After several minutes with no adverse reactions from me I calmly stated I was going to my room and would come out when he decided to be a decent human again then I closed and locked my door. 5 minutes later he wanted me to cook him dinner. I didn’t answer and remained in my safe room. Last night I was at my daughters basketball and had my zoom support group so avoided him and his drama altogether. He spent hours all the way until 1030 looking at porn. Tonight he was...not abusive but back in the pattern of being sour, difficult to converse with, bitching about money and going straight to his room. It’s worth saying he always attacks me verbally for not working and says he’s always the one that carries everything. This gaslighting is really ineffective when there are facts. That I have in fact worked the last 6+ years. That in fact I received unemployment that kept us going while he was out unpaid 5 weeks from wrist surgery. He may scream abuse in an attempt to demean and bully me but my w-2 contains undeniable irrefutable evidence. Anyways the psychopath is flying free again- as I knew it would. He can’t even maintain one cycle more than 10 days anymore.
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