Strange

 My last post was from a couple weeks ago. To control the situation I adopted a let’s pretend it didn’t happen attitude. This has worked well but I can see him on the edge of narcissistic collapse already. He’s so addicted to porn. And he’s starting to show a lack of self esteem manifesting in attacks and his very own pity parties. The one incident that has been difficult for me is him getting snarky with me. I was telling him a story. My son was there and he used that subtle insult attitude and tone to question me in a suspicious way about why I would be texting a female friend from years ago that I just found. And when I got snarky back with him saying at least I wasn’t going on a date with a man from highschool like he did with a woman and my son reprimanded me saying I was being passive aggressive. that aggravates me because it’s like he can say whatever he wants but they want me to just lay down and take it to keep the peace and I don’t wanna be that doormat anymore. Typically when my son is around since he’s the golden child my husband will hang out a bit but lately even with my sons around he’s in his room. he comes home from work goes straight to his room. Comes out to get food goes back to his room and he stays in his room constantly. It’s actually really weird and I don’t understand how anyone can spend their entire life in their room -this has been going on for almost 2 weeks. Then today he went to work but he ended up coming home without getting all the way there because he was sick. I already had appointments scheduled with a doctor and a little bit of shopping to do so I went into his room in the morning he said he didn’t need anything so I let him be to rest.  Before I left I went back in and he was asleep so I left him alone to rest and went into the doctor. Not long after that I started getting calls. I didn’t get them till after I got out of the doctors exam room but they were along the lines of “why won’t you answer” “ the fact that you’re gone without anyone makes me wonder” which of course is an implication that he wonders if I’m doing something I’m not supposed to do but that’s only based upon his own actions since I’m not the one that cheats.  Then when I do get home I’m again like can I do anything for you can I get you anything and he just complains that no one’s over there to take care of him. Just why I went to the doctor and I said my hip and was met with blank silence he never even asked another single question not even about how it went and he claims he’s not being taken care of. Either way there’s something seriously wrong with him and he’s unable to hold on to normalcy for very long. It’s a strange life for me but somehow it’s even stranger for him