Casual Encounters at the Movies

Last week another accidental phone peek event led to the discovery that my husband is in high gear cruising the casual encounters on Craigslist. I did not confront him...instead I posted my own ad. It read something like this : to my husband: Yeah, you..5'11 ft with brown hair, eyes, and a moustache. Did you think I didnt know you were still trolling CL looking for sex? I dont care but I do care that you think Im stupid. So get over your own cleverness and stop being a lying jerk. Of course I received numerous responses...surprisingly most were in the "you go girl" vein. Several were hookup offers. A couple were insightful. The only one I continued dialogue with was a man who walked my husbands mile. He lost the love of his life in a disheartening similarity to my situation. He was emphatically forthright and gave me some insight. It was a brief conversation but was impactful.  And yet he had recognized and conquered his moral turpitude. I don't think my husband is driven enough to do that. Until his email I was maintaining my emotionless facade. He cracked it...but as far as I've come the chink was but a pinprick. And gone by the time my husband got home. I look at him and my emotion blanks...while my thoughts run a diatribe in my head...mainly what a douchebag he is! One item of note...we went to the movies again. Once over we got up to leave...as I stepped into the aisle a couple young kids stepped out also so I stopped a moment to let them pass..they turned the other way though...and in those brief seconds my husband said "GO' with impatient rudeness...then actually shoved me from behind on the steps. I immediately addressed it...calmly telling him it was unnecessary to shove me. Of course this pissed him off to where he minimized it telling me I was crazy and a nut job being dramatic about him pushing me...acting on his addiction by trolling CL equals rude encounter at the movies.....